Please don't get discouraged because by no means am I trying to discourage you or pollute your view on the future. There is a beauty to it, a maturity that it brings. Not living for yourself has a way working out your problems. For example, if I feel fat, I forget about it the next time I have to make lunch for my son. If I remember that I haven't had a pedicure since the New Testament was written, I forget about it the next time I have to grade papers for 150 9th graders that think I'm old at the ripe age of 27.
Even though it may sound like I'm complaining...ok maybe I am a little...I really do love my life. How boring and pitiful would it be to just have me to focus on all day long. I've lived with myself for 27 years and, sure there are things I want to do for myself, but ultimately I know those things will go towards the good of my family and friends...the people that love me and the people that I love.
So to sum up...I need more time for myself, but not at the expense of those who rightfully count on me and hopefully as I better myself, I will better their lives as well.
I just realized that I don't have half as many responsibilities and people depending on me but I feel very busy. I guess it is just perception. I definitely can't complain in light of the labels/demands on you. I'm glad you have such a servant's heart about it all, but I think it is important that you allow yourself some time to relax and that you budget in some pampering.
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