Love, Sacrifice, and Border-Line Abuse

You may be wondering to whom I am referring when I use a word as strong as abuse...ME and every teacher that has stepped foot in a classroom to sacrifice his/her time to educate the youth of America.  There are certain individuals in the world who truly know what I'm talking about when I say teachers are tired, but most of America has no clue.  I'm done hearing that "but you get summers off" crap (excuse my frankness).  If I didn't get summers off then I wouldn't be able to effectively teach our children or live a normal life without going crazy.

I'm tired of being completely disrespected, cut off and cursed out by a 13 year old who then turns around and asks me for help on an assignment ten minutes later.  And guess what???  I help them..I want to kick them in the throat, but I help them.  Someone please feel my pain.  It is so humbling and such a lesson about this life NOT revolving around you when you must serve those who don't appreciate you.  Today my team of teachers and I told a kid that we cared about her and all she could ask us is why...

I told her that I had no clue because the way she was acting, I just wanted to wash my hands and be done! 

I wish I didn't have to care, but at the end of the day I know that I'm going to do whatever possible to help these children.  I'm tired of hearing my students talk about who is now pregnant and how her mom is "tripping" because she is mad about it.  I'm tired of students coming in with doctor's notes because they have a STD and had to be out for a few days.  I'm tired of 14 year olds walking around and acting like they are married in the hallways...doing things that my husband and I don't even do...and don't get me started on what goes on in the bathrooms.

How can I put my kids in a system like this?  How can I equip them to be leaders and not followers?  How can I know that what I'm telling them is really sinking in and they won't be living an infectiously poisonous life?  I don't know and I don't have the answers to my questions.  I don't know if anyone does.  I don't, but I have faith in who does and He is already making the arrangements...

Hero Husband [Poem]

Hero Husband


Leader: a person who rules, guides, or inspires others

to be great and to see their identity,
as they bask in the amenities of a man led
by something greater than words that men said.
Not a life steered by death,
but a life steered by breath
that was blown from the lips of El Shaddai.
Now walking uprightly is his reply
and his rely on love is constant and stable,
no longer consumed by types or labels.
A man whose fidelity to his master is known
and whose actions are unaltered in a crowd or alone.



A leader, a lover, a safe haven, a friend,
who’s respected;
a mere husband his roles transcend.
A fighter, believer, a warrior of life;
the backbone of his peers, his family and his wife.